It's been a little scary being an 'older' pregnant woman and
we all know the risks and what not. There's a list a mile long about
the disadvantages of being over 35 years old.
But I was thinking about something last night...there are actual advantages to being older and I want to focus on those!
1. The Mat21 test. It gave me a peace of mind at 12 weeks gestation
that my baby had no chromosomal issues. I also breathe a sigh of relief
when I see these posts about baby being the 'wrong' gender -- between
the Mat21 and the ultrasound that said 'girl' I'm feeling pretty good
that my choice in pink paint in the nursery is a solid one!
2. Being financially stable. This one is kind of a 'duh' one -- when I
had my first at 17 I was broke and it was hard. I had to use a lot of
hand me downs and what not. This time, if I want it I buy it, even if I
know I won't even use it.
3. Time flies as you grow older...These past 7 months have FLOWN by. I
swear, I've only been pregnant for 2 months. 3 tops. But somehow it's
the middle of June and August is right around the corner! I remember
when I was pregnant with my boys, the weeks and months crawled and every
day equaled what is now a week in 37 year old time. Now I know this is a
double edged sword - as soon as this baby is born she will be 15 years
old by next week. But for now I'm just enjoying how quickly the
pregnancy is going and focusing on meeting my little girl!
This story is actually crazier than you can believe and when you read
it you'll swear that I'm full of crap but I promise I'm not!
My dates were spot on. I was sixteen years old and had only had sex
one time before I got married. That one time was all it took. My ex was
stationed at the Gila Bend Air Force Auxiliary Field in Gila Bend, Arizona.
Anybody from Arizona can appreciate just how miserably hot that area is.
My son was due June 14th, 1993.
My due date came and went. I was dilated to 3cm and 50% effaced. I
thought labor was imminent but I was WRONG. I walked around that way for
over four weeks, crying myself to sleep every night.
On July 15th we were making our way around the base perimeter as we
did every night, trying to kickstart my labor. Then we heard a familiar
sound...a rattle. The next thing we knew, a sidewinder (that's a
rattlesnake for you non-desert dwellers!) jumped out from behind a bush
at us and started chasing us down the road. I ran for about 10 feet
before I decided I would rather die then run one more step. We were an
hour and a half from the nearest hospital. I wanted to tell the others
to just cut the baby out of me if I got bit but those jerks (mostly
my family) had run ahead and left the enormous pregnant lady behind.
By some kind of miracle the snake gave up and turned around. I was THAT pathetic that even a snake wanted no part of me.
The next morning (July 16th, 1993) I was induced. Yes, after all of
that I STILL didn't go into labor on my own. I had him in three hours,
after only 10 minutes of pushing. However, because I pushed so hard and
forgot to breathe, I popped the blood vessels in my eyes and was blind
for about two hours. NOTE: make sure you BREATHE while pushing!
When he was born he had some problems due to being so overdue. He had
to spend a week in the NICU and it was tough. But almost twenty years
later life has come full circle and he his about to become a dad
himself; his girlfriend is due about two weeks before his birthday...
Thanks for reading, hope you've learned some valuable lessions:
1) When the doc does the cervical checks don't take them too
seriously or you could be crying yourself to sleep every night thinking
that labor is right around the corner.
2) If a rattlesnake jumps out at you don't panic - it's just not worth it
3) BREATHE while pushing or you won't be able to see your baby for at least two hours!
Okay, that just sounds crazy. And if you didn't know what it meant it would sound even crazier! But it's true...I'm having a baby girl! I'm pretty excited about it, my husband...eh...not so much. I think he was hoping that this would finally be his boy. But he's taking it well and realizes that after all we've been through that having a healthy baby is really what is most important. Once upon a time I thought I was destined to be a mom of two boys and that was going to be it. Suddenly up I'm up to my eyeballs in pink and purple and I'm LOVING it :)
Other than that, really not too much going on around here. The weather has been disgusting. Cold and windy and not looking like it's going to get any better in the foreseeable future. I'm so ready for summer!
I'm having company over on Sunday so I suppose that means that I should probably get my house in some kind of order but I feel unbelievably lazy and tired. I really need to kick it into gear and get off the computer...I'm going...right now. See me doing my dishes and laundry? Um...yeah. Wouldn't it be nice if the dishwasher gathered and loaded itself too?
Okay, okay, I'm going. I just wanted to do a quick update. I can't wait to start making more pink and purple ruffly things!
Yeah, I never did get back and say whether they're having a girl or boy. But I'm here now! And imagine my surprise when they announced a girl -- I was sooooo sure that they were having a boy! I'm having a granddaughter! CRAZY!
So I came across and old blog that I found when I was pregnant with C. Nobody will likely care about any of it but me, but I'm going to copy and paste it here just so that it doesn't get lost. I find it amusing to see what I was going through almost six years ago!
First Blog...
Current mood:frustrated
Okay...this is my first blog entry so we'll see how it goes! The
last few weeks have been interesting...I went to Arizona to visit my mom
and step-dad, found out that I was pregnant (I know...again?), and now I
have about seven more months of Hades. I am not one of those "I love to
be pregnant" people. J2 cried for about an hour when he found out -
but I think some of that had to do with the fact that he had watched a
show on Discovery Health Channel about conjoined twins and was freaking
out. In any case, up until this week I've been very nauseous and I've
been biting off heads. Add to that the two feet of snow we got yesterday
and the day before and I'm such a joy to be around. The wheels on the
snowblower that we JUST bought fell off (just like that...they just fell
off) and the cat was at the vet, having been declawed three days ago
(sorry Barbie it had to be done!) - we had to pick him up. Well, we
finally got the truck down our driveway (no easy task) and picked Kahn
up from the vet. No sooner did we get him into his kitty crate and on to
my lap does he stick his butt out the end of the crate and pee on my
leg. Wow, cat pee REALLY stinks. Yes - I appropriatey freaked out. If I
hadn't just spent $362.46 on the little you-know-what I think I would
have chucked him out the window right then and there. My truck still
smells like cat pee. So anyway, the sun is finally shining today and the
snow is starting to melt. I have a dentist appointment so I better be
able to make it down the driveway. Here's to hoping today is a better
day than yesterday!
Apr 27, 2007
Happy Birthday Jill
Current mood:hungry
Hey Jill, don't know if you realize it, but today is your Golden
Birthday...happy 27. Anyway, I don't have much to say today - I didn't
sleep last night so I'm very cranky! The highlight of my day yesterday
was getting a couple cavities filled...I also raided the bakery (Das
Meyer) and I think my pancreas is protesting from all the sugar. We also
went to Carrabas for the sole reason of getting a Dessert
Rosa...yummmmmmm! Not sure, but maybe that's why I couldn't sleep.
Anyway, I have a meeting and then I have every intention of sleeping the
rest of this day away. I'm eight weeks pregnant today - only 32 more
weeks to get through. Apr 29, 2007
Finally...Spring has Sprung!
Current mood:bored
Well, finally Spring has arrived. I'm hoping that we don't get any
more snow at least until September! Geez, we've had a ton this year.
Yesterday was so nice that J2, N and I took a ride out to
Dinosaur Ridge in Morrison. J2's mildly into fossils and rock
formations. It wasn't much, but hey, what the heck do expect for free? I
actually had to put my AC on in my truck - amazing how much things can
change in a week. After that we drove through Red Rocks Park. I can't
believe that I've lived here for almost five years and have never been
there. It was pretty neat. Then we got lost driving around, and
eventually found ourselves in Evergreen. All in all it was a pretty nice
day, considering it was just the three of us. Chris worked all day and
J1 went garage sale hopping with Dean and Tracey. When we got home
N and I napped for about two hours, then I woke up with a serious
pizza yen so Chris and I took an emergency trip to Anthony's Pizza.
Yummy. Then we stayed up most of the night watching crappy television
shows. Now I'm sitting in the Real Estate office so bored and tired that
I'm actually thinking about taking a nap on the couch, but it would be
just my luck that somebody would actually show up then. Probably not a
good idea.
This Sucks...
Current mood:sleepy
Okay...note the time that this is written. Once again I'm awake.
This is getting ridiculous. In two hours I have to take Chris to the
airport to catch a plane to Ft. Lauderdale. I laid in bed for at least
three hours before giving up and deciding to just wing it. Maybe once
this first trimester is over I'll be able to knock the insomnia. I swear
I never had it like this when I was pregnant before. I don't remember
having a hard time sleeping at all last time - it just sucked because I
couldn't sleep on my belly! Anyway, since I'm here I've decided to
ramble a bit. If you don't want to read the mindless rambling of a
crazy, sleep-deprived pregnant lady then feel free to hit your "back"
button now. Otherwise, hold on for the wild ride.
I finally had my first ultrasound done on Wednesday. I've been meaning
to blog before now, but I've been walking around in a partially
vegetative state for the past few days (oh, who am I kidding - last few
weeks, really!). Anyway, it was pretty cool - I got to see the little
jelly bean and see and hear his/her hear beating. That's always a neat
moment - you can't help but grin like an idiot. That little ticker is
beating at 169 beats per minute. I hadn't had any sleep the night before
(of course) and didn't have a chance to grab anything to eat on my way
out the door, so when the vampires at the lab took half my blood I
almost fainted. I think I was a little cross-eyed, but I handled it like
a champ. At least I didn't puke all over the poor blood-sucker. First
OB appointments are always awkward. Nothing like getting butt naked and
discussing your children with somebody while they're shining a bright
light up your nether regions. Chris and I were discussing that bright
light right before the doctor walked in. I was thinking it would be a
nice reading lamp. For some reason I thought of my mom and her sewing
lamps. In any case, I shooed Chris and N out the door as soon as the
doctor walked in. There are some things that need to stay private in a
marriage. I don't need Chris looking at where the light is shining and
saying "Wow!" Something tells me that our relationship would never be
the same!
Anyway, the good doc told me that I can take Tylenol PM
for my sleep problem. I took two last night and still didn't get to
sleep. Not sure what it's going to take. It's interesting, when you only
get about two or three hours of sleep per night, most of your sleep is
REM sleep, which means that you are in a dream state. So when you first
wake up (or in my case somebody wakes me up - usually J1) I always
remember the dream I was just having. I had a doozie the other night. I
dreamed that a tree fell on top of our house and smooshed it like a
pancake. In my dream I was freaking out because Chris wouldn't call the
insurance lady, and I was stressed out about quitting my real estate job
because we would certainly need to buy a new house.
The end of the school year is quickly approaching. Yay! I don't know why
the boys' teachers feel the need to give them huge projects at the end
of the year. J2 has a science project and J1 has both a EuroTrip
project and some goofy ecology project. Of course, the teachers know
when they assign these things that there is no way a kid can complete
these without their parent's help. I feel like sending evil e-mails to
their teachers asking them why they torment me.
Okay, this
rambling could go on all night (but it beats watching Proactive
infomercials on TV). I suppose I could do something useful like clean
the house. Annie and David and Dean and Tracey are coming over on
Saturday (technically that is tomorrow) and my house is such a wreck
right now that I'd rather burn it down than have to clean it. Okay,
that's a mild exaggeration. Maybe I should work on my novel, since I'm
so wordy right now. Come to think of it, my best writing has always come
to me in the middle of the night. I'm signing off for now. Really. I
am.
I lied...
Current mood:busy
Spring has NOT sprung. It's been snowing for three days straight.
I'm so tired of the snow right now I could scream! And it's supposed to
snow all day tomorrow, and maybe even Tuesday. Maybe, just maybe it'll
be done after that...
It's been a busy weekend, considering Chris
has been in Florida. I had company over on Saturday, then J2 had his
move up meet in gymnastics. I thought he did pretty well, but I have no
idea what the judges were really looking for. I hope that he passes -
this is the first thing that he has really tried at. Then I had the
neighbor kids over and we ate junk food and watched Night at the Museum.
Today
was a little more low-key. I went into the real estate office and did a
whole lot of nothing. Then I had a Taco Bell craving so I thought
outside the bun. Then N and I slept for about three hours...then we
went to Barnes and Noble and then ate at Sweet Tomatoes. Funsies.
I
need to find a way to get some sleep. The Tylenol PM isn't working. It
makes my face turn beet red and my heart pump real fast but I still
can't shut off my brain. If only I could down a gallon of vodka or 150
proof rum. I know, I know, I'm pregnant and that's generally not
recommended by my obstetrician. It's not fair - Chris swears by turkey
or yogurt, but then he can just hit the pillow and fall asleep anyway.
I've always been an insomniac - but now I'm a pregnant insomniac.
Craving of the Day: Baja Chicken Chalupa with extra hot sauce
I Can't Wait!
Current mood:excited
I'm so excited! Chris and I are going to Maine and NYC in July - I
just booked the tickets. It's going to be so awesome - we'll fly into
NYC and hang out for a few days then we'll drive up to Maine to tool
around with Angie and TJ. I can't wait to see lighthouses and big
cliffs! Last year Ang and I were like Thelma and Louise - but with our
kids in the backseat (lol). I've never been to New York (other than a
crappy layover) and I'm pretty excited about it. Of course, all my
pregnant mind can think of is...food...yummy!
Speaking of, Happy Mother's Day to me. I've deserved it!
Craving
of the Day: Jalapeño Bites....Man, I need to watch out or I'm going to
get fat! I did resist the Coldstone Creamery, though. I probably won't
tomorrow though!!!! Also...I've been craving El Pollo Tropical's
plantains since Chris got back from Florida last week. I am seriously
pricing plane tickets. If Chris hadn't told me how messy his dad's
keeping our condo I'd be there already!!!!
Yellowstone National Park
Current mood:cheerful
Wow, that was fun! Well, the drive wasn't, but the rest of it was!
Most of Wyoming is kind of ugly (I know many of you disagree!) but the
Yellowstone area is pretty cool. Sure, many of you might wonder why we
would take a vacation to somewhere that looks an awful lot like home.
Yes, we can see elk any time we wish, yes, we have somewhat of a bear
and mountain lion problem in our own backyard. But for some reason
seeing it at Yellowstone is even better! Besides, you can't see buffalo
in our backyard! Also, we don't have huge stinky geysers and bubbling
mud pots. For some reason every time I walked by a geyser the darned
thing went off! I smelled like rotten eggs for the entire trip. But it
was so much fun!
Ultrasound!
Current mood:cheerful
Today was our ultrasound - obviously not the exciting event it's
supposed to be when you are not finding out the gender, but what the
heck, it was still nice to see the little monkey. The baby is very
healthy and VERY active! He/She was gulping down the amniotic fluid like
it was Mountain Dew...here's a picture of the baby drinking away!!!
(yes, my child looks like the Predator. I'm a little scared!)
Our Vacation!!!!
Wow - that was a MUCH NEEDED vacation!!!!!! I have to admit
though...the first part of the vacation didn't feel much like vacation.
New York City is a cool place to visit - but I would NEVER want to live
there! It's filthy, expensive, loud, smoky, and worst of all crowded
with people! There are a lot of really neat things to see but next time I
go back I'll make sure that I'm not pregnant! We did get to see the
World Trade Center, Statue of Liberty, and Times Square ($17
cheeseburger!). We also went to a NY Yankees game, which was probably
the highlight of Chris's trip, but I only mildly suffered from it. The
hotel room was the size of a Cheerio box - and I'm only barely
exaggerating!
The Maine portion of the trip was much more my
speed - nice and laid back! Eating lunch under gigantic trees in Bar
Harbor, whale watching, relaxing on the dock outside of our cabin,
looking at the impossible number of stars at midnight - on one of my
many excursions outside to the bathroom. I paid for that one - I still
have so many mosquito bite scabs that it looks like I have the
chickenpox. It was awesome hanging out with TJ and Angie while everybody
else drank amazing amounts of beer and I drank blueberry soda. It was
either my killer word skills that helped me win at Scrabble, or just the
fact that everybody else was drunk, I can't say for sure.
Chris - Bar Harbor, Maine
Us - Cadillac Mountain (Acadia National Park)
N & Jen - World Trade Center
Big Scare Yesterday!
Current mood:embarrassed
Let me first start off by saying that with my first baby I went to
44.5 weeks - and then STILL had to be induced. I was also induced with
my other two, so what I'm saying is that I've never gone into labor on
my own.
Until yesterday.
I was having a crappy work day,
the phone wouldn't stop ringing. I work at home, and the phone is
cordless, so when I heard the phone ring I knew I had to answer it ASAP.
Well, I was wearing these pajamas with really wide bottoms and I
tripped over my own pants and fell right onto my belly. I wasn't hurt,
but I thought, "what the heck", and I called my doctor. She told me to
get in and we'll check it out - probably no big deal.
So I went
to the doctor, and while we were waiting for the ultrasound room to
clear she decided to do a NST, mostly just to pass the time. I wasn't
feeling any contractions so I had no reason to do anything except get
the ultrasound and go home.
But the NST started picking up
regular contractions, so they rushed me up to Labor and Delivery. They
gave me a shot of Terbutaline and I had to stay there for 8 hours! Now
I'm just waiting for the results of a blood test, but I think I'm
otherwise okay. I need to relax, but I wasn't put on strict bed rest or
anything.
The lesson here: If you are pregnant don't wear super
baggy legged pants, and if you do, don't run across the room for the
phone - no matter who it is. It turned out that the phone call that I
had to get was Chris calling on my work line because he couldn't get
through the house line!
New Baby!
Current mood:tired
Name: C Elizabeth Date of Birth: November 21st Original Due Date: December 7th Weeks Pregnant: 37w 5d Weight: 7lbs 11oz Length: 19 3/4 in Gender: GIRL (surprise!)
Story:
It's funny…when I woke up that morning for some reason I knew I was gonna have a baby!
I
had been feeling contractions for months so as usual I didn't take them
seriously. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and after I left I realized
that I was bleeding quite a bit. I decided to wait it out that night
because the weather was a tropical 11 degrees with snow piling up
outside. And I had never gone into labor on my own so why should I worry
that I would this time?
So yesterday morning, as I'm looking out at the 5+ inches of snow that
had already fallen and thinking about the extra 4 or 5 inches to come I
continued to ignore the contractions. My husband and I went to town for a
doctor's appointment for him (he had shoulder surgery last week) and
then we decided to hit Johnny Carino's for lunch. After lunch I went to
the bathroom and noticed that I was still bleeding. I decided to take a
stop by my doctor's office just to check me out before heading back up
the mountain to our winter wonderland.
The doctor checked me out
and told me to go straight to L&D – turns out I was 5 cm dilated!
They broke my water at 3:00pm and gave me my epidural almost immediately
(I loved the epidural but it made me itch terribly). I had her at
6:28pm. I pushed for about 1 minute and 1 ½ pushes! I couldn't believe
how easy it was! I giggled my baby out of me - it was so much fun!
She
is GORGEOUS. Lots of hair and adorable chubby cheeks and rosebud lips.
She's a big eater already. Her brothers and sister are seriously
infatuated with her. I think we'll keep her!
All my days melt into one...
Current mood:exhausted
Merry late Christmas and early Happy New Year!
Everything is
going well here, same old same old...sleep deprivation, messy house, and
unkempt hair...gotta love having a newborn! She's a great sleeper -
actually a little TOO good. She takes 2 hours to finish her stinking
bottles because I have to keep waking her up to eat! It's horrible! Good
thing she sleeps 6 hours a stretch at night!
N's doing well
with her. She 'helps" out a lot by giving her nasty pacifiers and
smothering her while she sleeps...she even has a nickname for her - Baby
Poopoo. So sweet.
I can’t believe she’s four months old!
Current mood:sleepy
Time sure flies when you don’t sleep. Seems like yesterday I was
still whining about my aching back but now I’m just whining.
Everybody’s
doing well - it’s been a busy year already! My mom and Gerald came in
January to meet C, and then we went down to visit them in Arizona at
the end of February. My brother and his family were there and it was
great getting together with everybody. I don’t see them nearly enough!
Then in early March some out of town friends visited and we had us a
heckuva time!
Now life is going back to the normal
routine...boring, but stable. C was a super-duper sleeper - she was
clocking 10 or 11 hours without waking up for a bottle. Then, who knows
why, she suddenly decided to torture me at 4am every morning. That’s
what I get for bragging to anybody who would listen about how awesome a
sleeper my baby is. I won’t do that again. Oh yeah - I won’t be having
another baby ever again! muhahahahahahaha :)
September 11th
Current mood:contemplative
September 11, 2001 is the
Kennedy Assassination of our generation. Our parents clearly remember
where they were and what they were doing when John F. Kennedy was
assassinated. Likewise, we can recall in crystal clarity what we were
doing when we learned that our country was under attack.
I was
getting the boys ready for school that day (they were in Kindergarten
and 2nd grade) when my mom called me in a state of panic. I turned on
the television just in time to see the second tower collapse (we were in
AZ and 3 hours earlier).
At that moment I turned to my boys and
told them that their lives would be different from that day forward and
that they had better not ever forget that day. Every September 11th
they promise me that they haven't forgotten.
I asked J2 today
"So, what did you guys talk about for September 11th in school today?"
He looked at me quizzically and told me that they had a vote about it
last week and decided that they wouldn't talk about it today.
I
was appalled. This was a major turning point in modern history and these
people deserved to be honored and remembered. Since when did junior
high school become a democracy where the students decide what will be
taught to them? Why didn't his teacher decide that this was an important
lesson to be taught?
This upsets me on so many levels. I really
feel like the left wants to bury their heads in the sand and just
pretend that this never happened. They say that it is conservative
propaganda and they are afraid to show any footage of this day or talk
about it any more then they "have" to (lest they be accused of being
anti-American). They are clearly afraid of the patriotic feelings that
will ensue, and that will hurt their agenda.
If we allow ourselves to forget what happened it not only dishonors the victims of that day, it also dooms us to repeat it.
Fast
forward to today, September 11, 2008. J1 sheepishly admitted to me
that when he graduates from high school he wants to join the army.
Stunned, I wasn't sure what to say to him. Somehow, I found myself
answering: "J1, if that's what you really want to do then I would be
proud for my son to fight for our country."
It made me think
about that day exactly 7 years ago and all that has happened since then.
Would he be considering this course of action if 9-11 had never
happened?
It also made me think about how my 15 year old son
wants to DO something to aide our country when there are millions of
cowardly adults who would gladly run to Canada to avoid service. I'm not
saying that I'm not terrified at the idea of him going to war. The very
thought chills me to my bones. But when in our lives do we really have
the opportunity to make a difference? And when that opportunity arises,
how often to we jump on it? Most of us would rather run to the border.
If he follows through with this dream then he can live the rest of his
life knowing that he DID something.
Sometimes it amazes me
that my daughters will never know what life was like before that day. It
was wonderful being able to grow up and not know that there were people
who wanted to wipe us off the map. Just waiting for the other shoe to
drop. I worry about the world in which they have to grow up now that the
innocence is gone.
I am officially a crappy blogger
Current mood:awake
I really thought I would be into the blogging thing a little more...oh well, who cares anyway?
Nothing
too exciting going on these days...my sister got married, J1 started
high school, J2 is his usual uneventful self, N started tennis on
Saturday and will be starting Ballet tomorrow, C is now cruising
the furniture and threatening to stand by herself.
N shoved a BEAD up her nose!
Yup, the title says it all. I guess it could be worse, what with my
ear phobia and all. One minute everything is hunky dory and the next
minute she's tapping me on the shoulder and calmly explaining that there
is a bead up her nose and she can't get it out. Ugh. So I took her into
the kitchen (best lighting), shoved a broken plastic fork up her nose
and eventually pulled the sucker out. I couldn't believe a child of mine
could be so STUPID!
Yeah, I guess it's for real now. I know it's been a while since I've updated. It's been an incredibly bumpy journey these past two months. I kept telling myself that I would update the blog but there always seemed to be something right around the bend that I was waiting for before I did.
I had my NT scan done last Thursday. I was surprised at how quickly it went. I know she was looking at this and that but it seemed to go by so fast that I can only assume everything looked normal and boring (which is a good thing!). The baby was very active and seems to want to take after its sisters and be a gymnast :P Nuchal fold was 0.53mm (which I think is a good thing). I also had a MaterniT21 test done, which is a blood test that they run from blood taken from my arm. The test was supposed to take a week to get back and when it did it was going to not only tell me if my baby had any chromosomal issues but also whether it is a boy or a girl! The only problem is that I got a call today from the perinatologist's office telling me that the hospital lost my blood vials and I have to go back in and get redrawn. So now I have to wait another week or so for the results. I want to cry :(
Today is a perfect example of why I don't update as often as I should. I'm supposed to find out the sex of my oldest son's baby today. His girlfriend is getting an ultrasound done at 1:00 today. I told myself "I'll update the blog after I find out." But, of course, something else will come up and I will tell myself that I will update the blog after that happens. And so on and so forth. So I'm updating the blog now and if I get a chance I'll update it again later!
C has a cough from hell. She sounds like a chain smoker. I can't freaking wait until this summer! The weather has been horrific. Not too much snow (but we really need the moisture) but it's been nippy and WINDY. The wind is so bad that you feel like you're going to blow away as soon as you walk outside the house. Just pure misery.
Not much has been happening with N. Same old same old. I guess that's a good thing though!
J2 is still living with his dad. He seems pretty miserable over there. The worst thing for him is to sit around doing nothing and that's exactly what he's doing. From what I gather he's sleeping until 2pm and staying up all night.
I'll try to update tonight if I get a chance. But for now, here's a picture of my baby at 12 weeks!
It's 8F outside right now and I'm a little chilly!
This will be a quick post. I have to start dinner and then I just want to go to bed! The husband and I have been watching Dexter every night and we just finished Season 3. Something tells me that he won't just let me go to sleep instead of starting Season 4 though!
So other than the pregnancy there's really not much of an update since the last time I blogged. That Monday my HCG levels were at 870. On Wednesday they were up to 2019. My progesterone was 16.7 (on the low side but too concerning). Things were going well but I was still spotting quite a bit. The following Sunday I starting spotting even more so I went into the ER. They did an ultrasound and were concerned because at 5w3d they only saw a gestational sac. My HCG levels came back at 6700 and they prepared me for another miscarriage.
Devastated, I went back to the doctor on Wednesday for another ultrasound and blood draw. I watched the screen anxiously praying for a miracle and by the grace of God they found a heartbeat! It was a very slow heartbeat (97bpm) but it had probably only just started beating that morning. The doctor said she was a little concerned at how slow it was but that we could be a little encouraged by it but wouldn't know more until the HCG numbers came back.
That night she called me with the HCG numbers. 15,675. Still not doubling but not bad at all! But my progesterone numbers had dipped to 12.6. I started on the progesterone supplements that night.
I haven't had any spotting since starting the progesterone. I have another ultrasound first thing Thursday morning. I'm praying that I see a little heartbeat beating around 150bpm!! Otherwise she'll tell me that my little gummy bear is gone. It honestly could go either way and I'm scared. For now I'll just keep trying to stay positive!
frustrated
hungry
bored
sleepy
busy
excited
cheerful
embarrassed
tired
exhausted
contemplative
awake
